:) its just me

I agree there is no a guide point where how the parenting technique is right or wrong. My mother inlaw wanted me to apologize to him Regardless saying I dont support his school changing. Regardless I spent time with two small ones than to concern about him. Did I ? I'd tried my very best to understand him and to notice his small little gestures. Yes, we know he is different. Or should say with mild autism, but a smart one. He knows where should he spend his time to grab the attention and yet to act naive infront of the right people. Im upset, Im dissappointed. And again, I admit that Im a avoider who doesnt want to face problems when it attacks. It just exactly what had happened during the past and can forsee Im just repeating what my parents arw doing. I choose to avoid and escape. Once, I met a gf saying that after many years of being a good wife and a good mother, then someday sometime, she changed and she got back her own character, the real of herself. She divorced and she had

Infact, I dint get what I intended to do Mentioned to give a full release of freedom for him And yet, again I'd ruined it By again caught him at 430 in the midnight or what time it is, ah. I cant even remember. And so, my prozac is end of the course 🤪 Thats why Im here to 'journal myself' at this odd hour 0130 which is odd hours for me. Im exhausted. So much in the mind running by itself and yet Im puzzled for not sure how am I gonna save it this round. I miss my boy and I cant even really recall when was my last to see his face with his sharp features. I really need some hints and energy for how to tackle this challenge. He refuse talking, refuse even to just glance at me at once. This is at the age of 13. What they mention is  the rebellious age which the teenagers is still finding their own identity. Even said, to release full freedom and to talk about terms shall be the right way, by using right communication skills and technique. Once, I read the book mentioning that

I read on some topics regarding on the Prozac to define -  Fluoxetine, sold under the brand name Prozac, among others, is  an antidepressant of the selective serotonin reuptake inhibitor (SSRI) class . It is used for the treatment of major depressive disorder, obsessive–compulsive disorder (OCD), bulimia nervosa, panic disorder, and premenstrual dysphoric disorder. the current medication that I'm with  at this moment Not to force that is a must to commit with it but yet it really helps alot Perhaps, one of the best meditation is also by Journaling has been stopped for a long long time since after I'd been so "drown" with the life at this moment BUSY with no quality moments and yet getting all the stress all by myself And yet to claim that I needed something to ensure myself is OK sound ridiculous But I believe Journaling is definitely one of the option that I can get rid of myself with  either the medication the imagination of even the powder or so Please let it works