:) its just me

回来家里3天了 也是时候 收拾心情 又回去冷冰冰的城市里生活了 😔 在家住了几天 爸爸也和我们一起飞回他的另一头家 这个家 也只留下 静静的四周围 好感触 说 也因婆婆都离开我们了 也是事实 也可见 我们需要回家乡的理由更少了 还何况 爸爸也不打算是在这里养老了 😔 那种心情 有谁真的可以体会呢 讨厌现实生活中 所要面对真真假假  假假真真 的虚伪社会 为了 找吃 为了 有自己的社交圈子 而也就任人摆布 说走就走 说留就留 但往往 也忘了自己的初心 你真的忘了 你自己属于那一类型的团体吗 孩子的无奈 孩子的不懂的沟通 让我快崩溃了 一样的选择逃避 一样的不想面对 原谅吗米对你的严格 对你的不体谅 但 我真的不知该如何做 连自己的 情绪都不能打理好 又怎么可以把你带入 适合的路途呢 也只好等 继续等。 请耐心点。 

Things are getting much challenged. Id been awake easily 5 times within 5 hours. Just to make sure my son is doing OK and to find out what is rolling in his mind.  Finally, found his little notes at 3.30am and I'd replied him. Frankly, I was totally speechless by having known he text the driver by using my name and saying that he is not going to school for two days with the reason because Im not around.  First, its not right by having lies saying you need to use the phone to check on ther things.  Second, if you refuse to go the camp this weekend, give a valid reason which can support. You told me you are not good making friends and rather releasing stress at home by having your PC time with your friends.  Fine. But you should be telling me the truth by rather making this move.  Lastly,  Mummy is not blaming you for having poor results and please dont give yourself pressure by pushing yourself so hard for this new environment. It takes time to adapt.  ...

Its been awhile for not writing with the reason that the job had not been under my expectations and things had been swaying away from the track. And I'd finally decided to attend my uncle shuyi class, with the reason that I have my sense that its time to fix myself and make the right decision which follow my own will rather just to please anyone else. And yet, I guess I had made the right choice.  Attended the class by knowing a little bit more about myself and to know and understand how to conquer the other side of feelings, by having myself at the priority. By doing this is not being selfish, its just treating myself for abit more reasonable and fair with any of the games. Eventually, the career opportunities with the right job offer comes to me immediately just less than one week after I'd tender my resignation. And it seems things has been under controlled and as what I expected to have a new chapter of shiny life by starting November. And of course, not to forget to well s...